I turned 30 this past year. WEIRD! I remember when 30 was OLD!
I remember when my mom was 30, I was 10 and I wanted to grow up and be just like her. I used to think she looked like a barbie doll. I want my girls to always be able to look up to me, not in the way I look necessarily but I want them to have many memories of me. I want them to remember having fun together. I remember coloring in my Precious Moments coloring book on the living room floor while watching cartoons with my mom. :) I want them to remember me singing at the top of my lungs (even if what they remember is that I hurt their ears) to praise songs and having fun dancing to music throughout the house together.
I want my kids to remember lots of laughter, smiles, talks, prayers, and godly guidance when they look back on their childhood. I want them to grow up and be that kind of parent as well. I am FAR from perfect and I am learning everyday and I know it is something I will continue to learn because I will never be perfect. But these are things I desire. Jesus, I want Derrek to remember our morning cuddles on the couch when he gets up. I want Trinity to remember our long talks and crafting together just because. I want Sophia to remember our laughing and dancing together and singing at the top of our lungs. I want Arianna to remember our tickle fights, she is the best tickler I have ever seen. :) I love my kids and being their mommy has been the most rewarding thing I couldve EVER done with my life. NO job in this whole world could've ever been better. I pray God that you teach me patience and guide me as I guide them. I want to be a great example of a godly wife, I want them to grow up and marry a man that will love them and guide them when I can't anymore. I want them to be picky and to marry a man that will be the spiritual leader in their home. And I want Derrek to grow up and be that amazing man for some lucky girl. I want to be a good housekeeper so they can learn from my example, I want them to learn hands on as they grow up too. Not just by watching. I want them to see how very important church is and having a church family to love and lean on. I want them to see that it is what you can 'give' your church and bless other lives, not what they can give you. I want Derrek to be a gentle man. I want him to spoil his wife and guide her and tell her how amazing she is, making sure she knows how much he loves her and appreciates her at all times. And be her leader in life, and she will love him and want to follow. Life is hard and it is really hard to put your own wants or needs below someone else's but I want to teach my children how to do that. Jesus you are our true example of that. I pray God that you lead me and help me to be more selfless and loving. I pray you help me to be organized and to 'run' our home in a way that pleases you. I want to be the submissive wife you intend for me to be. Please God help me and guide me to be the best me I can be because of you. Be my strength and my guide. I love you and Thank You God for this beautiful day!
